Random thought About standards....

So I'm chilling in my room thinking 'I should really be packing right now' but oh well,instead of just thinking about it I'm going to write about it. Crazy that I'm making this public but whatever,I'mma do it anyway.

Have you ever had something so good and then lost it or you don't have it anymore but you can't settle for less anymore coz you had that awesome taste. For example, I had a boyfriend once whom I was absolutely crazy about and to me he set the standard for every other guy,you either had to beat that standard or beat it! Sound crazy? Yeah I think so too! Lol,anyway so years later another guy came along and set a new standard... But it didn't work out so now I'm just wondering if and how some other guy is going to top that standard *insert thinking face here*

Another brilliant example is my relationship with God. Before I knew God he wasn't a big deal to me,I wasn't even sure he existed but that was until I was sure he existed. I won't long this one out,what I'm saying is I've had a taste of this life with God and now I want NO other. God is in a league of his own, He's incomparable and the standard he's set NOONE and NOTHING can top that! Sometimes people try to convince me that I'm missing out on this other life without God. HA! That's crazy coz I've been about that life and I wouldn't trade the life I have now for my old one,no way!!!

What was the point of this blog? I'm not sure but maybe what I'll say is always hold out for the best and when you find the best don't ever let it go...

Demonstrating faith???

So one day i was childminding for one of my cousins, at that time their son was about 1 year old or somewhere there. Now you know kids run around a lot, they are filled with so much energy and i think they all think they can do everything and anything including flying. My nephew was no different. He saw one of his toys across the room and decided that's what he wanted so he started to go for it which wasn't a problem...except it kind of was. This lil man was NOT watching where he was going, as he ran his eyes where on the toy that he wanted, that was his destination. He almost tripped over something but he didn't even stop to check what was in his way, lil man kept going till he got to where he was going!!! What's my point??? FAITH!!!

My nephew wanted something and he straight up went for it non stop and as the adult there it was my responsibility to get things out of his way lest he fall and hurt himself. He did not care what was in his way, somehow maybe he trusted that everything should move out of his way as he ran, i don't really know what was going through his mind but what came to my mind was FAITH! See as the bible says "Unless we become like the little ones we can not enter the Kingdom of God".

Imagine if we trusted God enough to go where we're meant to go without worrying about what's in the way and what could possibly make us trip and fall, without worrying about things that might make us fail our mission. Imagine if we had a little kid's mentality and our eye was on our destiny knowing and trusting that obstacles WILL move or be removed from our way... How would our lives be like then?

God is responsible for us as believers, the bible says the just shall live by faith. To me that means i go my way trusting God to stop me when i'm going the wrong way or to remove the obstacles as i go without so much as worrying. Someone said "If you can't do nothing about it, don't worry about it" so my advice to you is have no worries, have no fear and i mean that. The God we serve does not sleep he does not slumber but he watches over us constantly(check Psalm 121 and 125)

Keep your eye on your destination, how you get there is God business coz he's responsible for you!!! God is the adult in this relationship and i expect him to take care of my needs, every single one of them and i never have to worry how because He has always taken care of the "HOW"

I FEAR FAILURE  I HAVE FAITH,i don't have to see the next step to take it!

*Proverbs 3:5-6 = Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight*

I dare you!!! Do you dare?

Hey there lovers, how ya'll doing in 2013? I'm feeling good as always ;)

So anyway for a while now i've been wanting to blog about this thing i'm about to write now,lol.
For a while now i've had a problem with my arm, i have this constant pain,sometimes it feels better sometimes it doesn't. One day i was at work and i moved my arm a certain way and the pain i felt was crazy!!!! Why i'm making a big deal out of it is because at this time i thought the pain was going away but do you know what i realised??? I realised that the pain had always been there but i had learnt how to move my arm and how to NOT move my arm in order to not feel the pain... Where am i going with this?? Follow me....

A lot of us are like this with so many issues that we have in our life, we've been going through some things for so long we've gotten used to putting up with them, it could be a habit, someone hurt you, anger issues, i don't know only you know what crazy issues are in your life and for some the world knows your issues,lol, especially if you put them up on things like facebook and twitter but that's not even the point-it's just the fact that there are things you've gotten used to and comfortable with or that you put up with when you shouldn't have to!!!!
Some of these issues we have lie dormant until they erupt and we're reminded "Hey, that issue's still hanging inside of me". What's my advice??? Deal with your issues!!!! For example myself, i should go see a doctor about my arm- what do you need to do or who do you need to go and see in order for your issue to get dealt with?? And may i also say a lot of us will need discipline to overcome our issues, some will need to let go of some things or some people. Do whatever it takes to be free, ask God to help you because i know for sure there is nothing he cannot fix, after all He's the maker of you *wink*.

According to Ephesians 3:20 God is able to do whatever we can ask of Him or whatever we can imagine, so       
as far as your imagination goes God can go further than that-you get what i'm saying?

BOUND and hello FREEDOM

I dare you to be free from your issues, i dare you!

what's the point though?

I'm sitting in my bed thinking 'what is life really about?' I know the question gets asked a lot but am i the only who thinks if i die today or tonight what's going to make my life count? What have i done to touch the world? What have i done to change a life? I was talking to someone yesterday and she was telling me how someone told her to change her friends because they are uneducated.... Is this how shallow human beings are? A degree is what qualifies us? I watched a video today of a man who has dedicated his life to feeding the hungry and homeless, isnt that amazing? Isn't that what life is about? I know most consider the finer things in life to be material things, living a certain standard of life but is that all there is though? I say the finer things in life consist of loving the supposedly unlovable and the supposedly undeserving, giving to the needy and homeless, being there for one another unconditionally, give your time, give your money, lend a shoulder... these are some of the satisfying things in life believe it or not. 

I choose to touch the world, one of my favourite poets says "I may not change the world, but i will touch it" so i, Chiedza Bvundura, say "I may not change the world, but i will touch it and i cannot fail at it other wise- what's the point?"

We're here only for a little while, make it count and make God your number one ;)

What happens when we get desperate??

Above everything else in my life i want to honour the God that i serve, He never fails... He NEVER fails!

On Saturday 3 November 2012 i can honestly say i experienced my first ever real heart pain, i have never in my life felt so helpless and hurt. You know one of them ones where a situation arises, you get notified about it and you sitting down when you're told and it makes you stand up on your feet in desperation? You want to go somewhere but you don't know where... Maybe you don't know what i mean and if that's the case i pray you never find out, but then again thats the reality check one might need!

I'm realising now that most of us are in the situations that we're in because we aren't angry enough to say "This stops now!" or "This changes now!!". I know we've heard this before but we are comfortable in our mess but i know that's not what God wants for us. You know, when i pray sometimes and i'm praying for change but i'm not desperate for change... don't know if anyone can identify with that. You want change but you don't want it enough that's why you still in that mess!

On Saturday i prayed to God out of a desperate heart, i begged God (believe me i have never begged God for anything, at least i don't remember begging God for anything) because i knew that only he had the power to turn things around and i say from my heart when i say this: You know that women with the alabaster box? or the one with the issue of blood? or Hannah who earnestly prayed for a son out of desperation because she knew only God could make it happen for her? i truly believe that was me on Saturday. I sat on my bed, my face covered in tears and i declared that things were going to change that very same day, i said God i trust you, i trust what you can do and i know by Your Spirit You can do this and guess what? By the end of the day the situation was turned around, it happened just as i had prayed for it.

I do have to say God always has me prepared for whatever comes my way. The whole of last week i was meditating on Psalm 20:7 and it says 'some trust in chariots and some in horses but we trust in the name of the Lord our God'  And so when i heard the news i didn't doubt that i could trust God so i'm happy God has blessed us with his Word because it kept me kind of calm, well i wasnt calm but i trusted God,lol, i desperately trusted Him! 

I think sometimes we dilly dally with our prayer life, i mean why should you continually have pain in your life? Why should you continually be in crazy situations when we serve a living God? We have been given the greatest name, and that's the name of Jesus and whatever we ask for in His name we already have it! 

I spoke to my aunt on this day, i was in tears and she said something very profound to me, she told me she knew i was a prayerful person and she reminded me that a prayerful person doesnt just cry, a prayerful person prays! i promise i'll never forget this and i want ya'll to know that you don't have to stay stuck in your mess. The bible says you shall decree a thing and it shall be established but until we've had enough of our mess, until we get desperate for change in our lives we'll never be whole, ever! 

Please let's get desperate for change and we'll see change, the bible shows this so many times!

Thinking in the shower instead of singing in the shower...why do we make fun of God??

I spend a lot of time in the shower, i love hot water so i just stand there till...till whatever time i get out! lol but i have to say my shower thoughts are the best thoughts because they are uninterrupted by anything or anyone. God is free to download His own thoughts into me. I'm able to see things with so much clarity. I know i'm not even the only one. I would go as far as to say the best ideas ever were thought of while someone was in the shower, but that's just a maybe because i wouldn't know for sure. I know a lot of people sing while in the shower but some of us just 'think'...well sometimes i sing too but not too loud.
Stop singing and think!! Ok, you don't have to but just try it. *wink*

Anyway, while in the shower today somehow my mind drifted to people. I thought about how it's not ok for anyone to call anyone ugly. I've always said 'only the one who made something can call it ugly because only he knows how it was supposed to come out', am i right or am i right? I'm soooo right!!

 So i imagined a kid making fun of another kid because they had a big head (supposedly) and the big headed kid went on to ask the other kid if they wanted to be taller and he replied 'yes'. 'So why don't you just do it then, make yourself taller?' the big headed kid asked. 'Because i don't have the ability to do so' the other kid said with his face saying that's an obvious answer! 'So do you think i made my own head like this?' Big headed kid asked. 'No...' the other kid answered tentatively. 'Why?' Big headed kid asked again. The other kid remains silent before hesitantly answering 'Because you don't have the ability to do so'. Big headed smiled and said 'i rest my case' as he walked away.

*The end*

So my point is this: When you call something ugly you offend and insult the maker of it. It is sad that we make other people feel ugly for looking different and the thing is they can't change the way they look. Personally i am guilty of this but i have been trying to see everyone in the light of God.

I paint, i write, i draw and if i, for example, painted something that i envisioned in my head and it came out the exact way i wanted it to and when i showed it to someone and they thought it was ugly i'll be thinking 'that's offensive because you didn't see what i saw in my imagination world this piece is perfect!!'. 

In my last blog i said i hated winter and it's like my song every single winter because i'm constantly saying it but i take it back. I don't hate winter anymore, winter is cold and i don't like being cold but the one who made winter made it perfect so i'm not gonna hate on it...not anymore...i shall try my best.

The next time you want to call someone ugly imagine how God feels because all he sees is awesomeness!!

love you lovelies, i'm off to work...in the beautiful cold winter *wink* 

How about making up our minds before making up our minds?

so i have no plan for what i'm going to write on here so i'm going to be random. i'm at my house, in my room which i hardly ever leave, i never want to leave the house. It's cold and i really hate the cold weather, sometimes i say i wish God would eliminate winter but i don't think thats what i really want,lol. Now that i've said that i've just realised that sometimes we want something so much right, but when we finally get it we realise we didn't want it at all. I recently made a decision and i didn't like the results!! I made this decision after days of thinking about it because i wanted to make sure i was sure but after the decision was made i realised i was never sure, i had made up my mind from the first day i decided i was going to think about it. Now i'm stuck with this decision and i keep praying that God would help me reverse the situation because i can honestly say i think i made a mistake. So let me say this: if you say you're going to think about something please actually think about it and weigh the options as in actually weigh the options so that you don't regret it. I know that a lot of us have already made up our minds when we decide we're trying to make a decision. I once read somewhere that if you think you're confused flip a coin for the decision and while the coin is in the air you'll hope for just one thing and that one thing you hoped for needless to say is what you really want. Makes sense right? I knoooow! lol